Reasons to like Christmas:
* No work til Jan 4th
* Shopping in Bangkok
*Q Bar (maybe)
*Streaking...my hair
* Parties
*Presents
*More parties
*Joel is home
Reasons to not like Christmas:
*THE CROWDS.
*Joel is home
hehe.
judith @ 1:32 PM
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I'm in shrug land.My latest reply to everything is a shrug. I'm trying to restrain it, in case the new lady boss who looks like a possessed guppy catches me. And tars me with the lazy ass brush. So maybe this is me coping. No tears. no screaming. No 3am babbling phonecalls to Lock asking if I'm pretty ( oh god Lock. I'm so sorry I did that. Quite hilarious now.Hindsight and all that.Ok. I buy you coffee.Oh grief. talking to my blog.) anyway, I'm not losing any weight ( dammit!). Not looking like little miss help me please. But still..hurting.in some weird way. I think.
You got to know when to hold ’em,
know when to fold ’em,
Know when to walk away and know when to run.
You never count your money
when you’re sittin’ at the table.
There’ll be time enough for countin’
when the dealin’s done.
Kenny Rogers is so profound. :D
No.Really...
And he's not talking about gambling.
I'm rambling.
That rhymed.
Night.
judith @ 1:53 AM
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Why is the right thing always the hardest thing to do? How can a person firmly hold to a conviction and get their opinions completely twisted around within a day? Why do I always end up feeling so bad.And rude.And mean. When there's always that tiny part of me that wonders if its all really just my fault?
Why is that no matter how much you care about someone, and how much they profess to care about you, you can never truly be yourself around them?Like there's some unwritten rule of non disclosure that I wasn't told about.Am I suppossed to fight the thought that lifelong self consorship is ludicrous?How sad is it that emotions and affections are so transient and far too easily transferred. Why do i feel relieved and utterly depressed all at the same time? Why is it that I have too many questions, and no answers?
judith @ 9:31 AM
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I've hit my 6 month mark at work.Almost. And am 180 degress away from my mindset 6 months ago. I can't believe I was scrabbling around for a job. I should've enjoyed waking up 10am,late nights, much drinks, meeting X whenever I felt like it. Word from the wise. Enjoy it now. The space.The time. You .will .never .get .it .BACK. I just aged 10 years typing that.
Now what to do next? What to do? What to do?
judith @ 11:52 AM
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Things have been unmentionably boring - routine really.Work.watch a movie.work.work.go shopping.work.housecleaning.work.church?work.work.work.
I am not a fan of routine. Which is surprising, because 6 months ago - I'd have been happy with some certainties in life. But when you get stuck watching TV every.bloody.evening.Something's got to give.
And baby blue python heels don't do it for me anymore.
What will?
judith @ 1:09 PM
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Well this weekend sucked.The end.
judith @ 8:24 PM
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